I Love You This Much

Dear Friends..

There is a lot of questions are running in my head. Sometimes, i try to stop thinking, but i always failed to do that. Perhaps, i yearn too much for a chance to make things looking good before i go (one day, in His moment). And then i am tired to face this life, because i lost the spirit of joy to enjoy a good process from Him. It feels so deeply hurtful, when i try to communicate this love for them. Why they can not understand what i mean?

In some last nights, i found my self so confused about how it would be if my time is up. How those whom I loved know that i love them so much, if they never understand my tears in many prayers in many nights just for them. I cry out to the Lord for answering me, what i have to do like i have no time anymore to do something for them.

And then I am asking my self, is it true that it is the only reason I am crying for?? Do I really love them?? Or I just feel disappointed because they do not try to be changed for good as I want. They are not trying to do what I’ve told. And it seems so desperately in my side. And I feel, I become a victim of this struggling of love.

I think I was doing too much for them, and now I come in to the limit of my strength to love them. I cannot bear it anymore . That is true; someone that we loved has a capability to break our heart awfully.

Friends, I really know that we have to love with unconditional love. But in fact, as a human, I don’t think this is really could happen in someone life. Because we need take and give, including in loving someone. This is not an easy way for me. How long I have to wait for their response? How long i have to struggle for thinking the best for their life? Could they can changed someday? 

Yeah, that is my current feeling.  And then I remember this song. This song I ever showed for Genorus Fellowship in UPH Surabaya. At that time, I talked about the unconditional love that God already and always show for us.

Can anyone really comprehend "unconditional" love?

It seems the love that parents have for their children is as close to unconditional love as we can get without the help of God's love in our lives. God is Love, and His love is very different from human love. God's love is unconditional, and it's not based on feelings or emotions. He doesn't love us because we're lovable or because we make Him feel good; He loves us because He is love. He created us to have a loving relationship with Him, and He sacrificed His own Son (who also willingly died for us) to restore that relationship.

And this LOVE is always good enough to help us love others and our self. I do not know how to describe for you, but this song could make me remember about the Great Love from God. And that is the only reason we have to stand up for love, always. 

No matter what happen, God gave us an ability to love others. There is no place for giving up. Love them unconditionally like God has done for all of us.

Look at the cross. God teaches us how to love. And God says: I Love you this much while opening His hand widely. The cross always reminds us that Love never failed. Love is love. And it is at work.

Hope you can reflect once again about God’s Love through this clip. God bless.

 I Love You This Much - Jimmy Wayne

He can't remember 
The times that he thought
Does my daddy love me?
Probably not
That didn't stop him
From wishing that he did
Didn't keep him from wanting
Or worshipping him

He guesses he saw him
About once a year
He could still feel the way he felt
Standing in tears
Stretching his arms out
As far as they'd go
Whispering daddy
I want you to know

[Chorus:]
I love you this much 
And i'm waiting on you
To make up your mind
Do you love me too?
How ever long it takes
I'm never giving up no matter what
I love you this much

He grew to hate him for what he had done
'cause what kind of father
Could do that to his son?
He said 'damn you daddy'
The day that he died
The man didn't blink
But the little boy cried

[Chorus:]
I love you this much 
And I am waiting on you
To make up your mind
Do you love me too?
How ever long it takes
I'm never giving up no matter what
I love you this much

Half way through the service
While the choir sang a hymn
He looked up above the preacher
And he sat and stared at him

He said
'forgive me father' 
When he realized
That he hadn't been unloved
Or alone all his life
His arms were stretched out 
As far as they'd go
Nailed to the cross
For the whole world to know

[Chorus:]
I love you this much 
And i'm waiting on you
To make up your mind
Do you love me too?
How ever long it takes
I'm never giving up no matter what
I love you this much